Where did the year go?
Let's see... there were all those hours taking care of my Sims in The Sims FreePlay.
Hours and hours each week cleaning the turtle tank.
Aside from that, I feel like I spent most of this year wasting time.
I hardly read any books.
I barely did any writing.
I attended very few social gatherings, even missing ones I usually go to, just because I forgot.
I rarely checked Facebook or Twitter.
I did go to the NYE party last night. But only at the very last minute, I seriously considered just staying home and bingeing on 30 Rock. I only stayed 2 hours and was in bed by 3.
Disengaging... sometimes intentionally, but mostly due to feeling overwhelmed has made this a strange year. At the same time, I went back to church which requires so much engagement. I guess I just need to figure out how to have some balance. Somehow reengage in life, and not take steps back from the good things I've started to do. Occasionally using my elliptical machine, being more careful about my diet, and going to church are all good. I just don't feel like I have the energy for much else. And my default is to just retreat into myself, curl into a ball and feel depressed.
Isn't 42 supposed to be the answer to life, the universe and everything? Shouldn't I have things together by now? Oh well. On with 43...
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